#4: collapse, sobbing, in a corner, and try to hide from the world.
Sometimes I just feel lonely. I have friends and a partner and a family, but it can feel like they’re not inside my head. Here inside my skull is a place where no-one’s reaching. It’s as though I’m on a different frequency, just to the side of everyone else, and I don’t know how to retune.
Sometimes I just feel abandoned. Like everyone else is moving off into the distance and leaving me behind. They think I’m following, but I don’t understand how they can go so quickly, and no-one will help.
Sometimes I feel too much, a massive, painful groundswelling of pain and despair that rises up inside me and bursts out, tears, screams, renting at my body.
I wish I could stop feeling like this. I wish something could help.